I didn’t intend to write today, but I had to share, because I always do.
Today was an interesting day for me. I got up intending to workout, but my normal workout buddy had an emergency today, and I didn’t want to do it without her because we want to stick together. It’s really important that we grow together with this routine, and do the best we can together.
I always put my work out clothes on as soon as I get home, right when I’m in the mood to do it. On work out days, I leave them on my bed, laid out all adorable with a little note to myself that says “just keep doing it,” it just helps me push along.
I laid in bed, kind of relieved that I was going to get a day off (since the first two-a-day workout yesterday left me pretty dead). But then I got into a fight with a friend (that seems really sudden, but I don’t feel a need to go into detail). I looked at my clothes, and my little note, and I just decided to go.
Before starting to work out, and get healthy, emotions would make me want to eat. I would celebrate with food, or get sad with food, or the reverse, not eat because I felt stressed out, or upset that I couldn’t control the things I wanted to.
Today my first thought wasn’t to eat – it was to jump in my car and go run. I was so mad that all I could think to do was run, I didn’t want to do anything else.
So I got in my car, checked in at the gym, jumped on the treadmill with some LMFAO, and I ran 2 miles. The longest run I’ve ever done. I’m sure it was powered by adrenaline, and being upset, and I don’t care if I can’t do that tomorrow. For once I did the right thing, and I drove home and danced to One Direction, and Carly Rae Jepsen (lame? Sure! But I loved it). It was a happy moment for me. I finally did the opposite of what i normally wanted to do, and I think I’ve gotten to that point where my brain and my body are synching. They both realize that it isn’t hard to do what’s right, and doing what’s right will absolutely make you happy.
I’m still so far from my goal. I want to see it this year, but it really depends on how hungry I am for this. Now that I know I’ve broken through the mind barrier, though, I think I can do anything.